Friday, March 03, 2006


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What Passion!!

I was just reading our dear professor Trevor Llyod's blog. He had posted a quote that spurred me to think of Isaiah 63:!,

Who is this coming from Edom, from Bozrah, with his garments stained crimson? Who is this, robed in splendor, striding forward in the greatness of his strength? "It is I, speaking in righteousness, mighty to save."

It is so overwhelming to simply think of our Saviour who tread the winepress and satisfied the wrath of God. More awesome is the fact that they are the same ultimately in the wonderful mysterious Trinity of the Godhead. How mysterious and wondrous it is that though we understand in part what He did for us. it is impossible to take our eyes off this amazing picture of the King coming, a King who is mighty, righteous,victorious!!

IN CHRIST ALONE MY HOPE IS FOUND!! MY ALL IN ALL

Hesed!!

I have been grappling with the meaning of hesed through all these days and you might want to expect some good posts on related topics next week. For now I want to leave you with a meaningful definition of God's hesed to meditate upon.
“It is a covenant word that refers to the faithfulness or loyal love that binds two parties together in covenant. When a person shows hesed to another, he is not motivated merely by legal obligation but by an inner loyalty which arises out of the relationship itself. Such covenant love has the quality of constancy, firmness, steadfastness."
God has bound himself to us with this hesed!! What a privilege to be wedded to the Most High God! What a privilege that we are his Bride!

- quote from Anderson Bernhard W., The Living World of the Old Testament, Longman Group Ltd., London, 1971. pg. 248

Monday, February 27, 2006

What a Day!!!!!

I spelled day with a capital ‘D’ for a reason. It was an amazing amazing day for me. My apostle [and I say ‘my’ with all the pride I have in my heart no selfish or individualistic view] Dr. Chandrakant Chavada had made a quick stop over in Wales ‘to meet me’, and I quote this [you can ask and verify if you want hehe!]. He came to Cardiff on Saturday morning but due to certain reasons I couldn’t meet him until Sunday afternoon [which was again the sheer kindness of Adrian and Sharon Holand].
But today was the best. He taught at our class [School of The Word] in the morning. Then he took my housemates and me out for lunch [TGIF, it was yumm!] followed by a one hour break after which we went out for some shopping that he wanted to do. And then he came back to our house for a while after which he left for a meeting that he had to go to.
Now tell me wasn’t that amazing!! I got to talk to him [and mind you no English, pure Gujarati!!] and I gained so many things as a result including lots of clarity of what the future held for me.
Overriding all this was the fact that I didn’t just meet my apostle today; I met my spiritual father who couldn’t have done more if he had been my natural father. I felt like I was back home just for a day.
Therefore, the natural response, “What a Day!!”

Saturday, February 25, 2006

'Of Mice and Men'

I began today with a lazy morning and the lack of energy stayed with me. So, in a brilliant rush of sudden intelligence I decided to do something else, in the least, I wouldnt be wasting my time doing nothing.
Most of the stuff I did might not interest you but what might interest you is that I read 'Of Mice and Men' by John Steinback. I wouldnt have come across this book if it was not on our classic read list. Anyway, once again, a great book. At first it left me wondering but then, I realized my error had been that I had not read the introduction, which did a great job at portraying the background of the novel and the author. I admit I was ignorant at both points but soon remedied it and then realized the magnitude of what I had just read. It was like I had just read a second 'Heart of Darkness'[by Joseph Conrad]but much simpler in storyline and structure.
It was quite a contrast to 'The Memoirs...' that I last read. It is Steinback's venture to come up with what he called "neither a novel nor a play but it is a kind of playable novel" and it sure did do him well because it won the Nobel Prize of Literature for him. It is very striking in the contrasting themes that it deals with. On one hand is the dire boredom and unescapable loneliness in the "ranch hand society during the Great Depression" while, on the other, is the unfathomable and yet unswerving friendship between George and Lennie. two of the same class. This has spurred me to read more of this period literature especially because I had conveniently not chosen the American Literature Paper at University. Maybe Joelyn [my American housemate] may enlighten me on it.
As for now, I am quite pleased with this intellectual and emotional relish and am hoping for more spiritual relish as I delve back into the truly bottomless depths of hesed, God unfailing, unending, righteous, true, covenant love, his not being our Master any longer, rather him being our Husband.

- quotes from 1. Of Mice and Men, John Steinback, Penguin Books
2. http://www.exampleessays.com/

Thursday, February 23, 2006

The very wise Mr. Trevor Lloyd

It was World Views today at the School of the Word. We delved into the deep waters of Modernism and tried to examine some of the consequences that it has had on the world as it is today. As the title already states it was the very wise Mr. Lloyd again, speaking to us, provoking us, challenging us and I think very ably teaching us to stand as Christians and make our voice known in today's world.
The discussions raced from toilets that flush to almost getting into Election and predestination [dont know how we got there]. All in all it was a wholesome meal which left us fulfilled savouring its flavours. Its post modernism tomorrow and I am already looking forward to it.

Sunday, February 19, 2006

Who will teach me to write?

I am reading 'The Writing Life' by Annie Dillard at present. At last after weeks I have got a chance to read it. It is such a treat if you are one of those who know the joys of fleshing out abstract ideas into concrete words which very well may not be so concrete after all.
In response to the question posed above, Dillard gives a very real and yet a very ethereal response,
"The page, the page, that eternal blankness, the blankness of eternity which you cover slowly, affirming time’s scrawl as a right and your daring as necessity; the page, which you cover woodenly, ruining it, but asserting your freedom and power to act, acknowledging that you ruin everything you touch but touching it nevertheless, because acting is better than being here in mere opacity, the page, which you cover slowly with the crabbed thread of your gut; the page in the purity of its possibilities; the page of your death, against which you pit such flawed excellences as you can muster with all your life’s strength; that page will teach you to write."
I think it is a writer's response to the core and what more, it is incredible!

Thursday, February 16, 2006

Off to the School again!!

We are back to the School of Worship again this weekend, only this will be the last of the four. Though it was tough at times, it was a great experience in terms of what we learned as a result. It started with the Tabernacle then David's tent right upto the seven songs of Revelation two weeks ago, not to mention the steady flow of Psalms by Dave Palmer.
Apart from the travels [you could hardly call a two-hour journey "travels" but then it would sound boring], I am brooding [in the most positive sense] around the idea of hesed in hosea. Most probably there might be some related posts on it quite soon.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

'Memoirs...' - The Review

I got the book ‘Memoirs of a Geisha’ by Arthur Golden as a gift on my birthday and it was indeed an ‘unputdownable’ book for me.
It deals with the life of a geisha in the World War years. I strongly recommend it for anyone who is a bit of an adventurous reader and also for the unadventurous one because it will open a whole new world to you. It has a rawness of life to it that might make the reader feel uncomfortable at times but it expresses the truth of grief and of life and of dreams very poignantly. The principal character, Sayuri, is like a piece of art who though very real in what she is always presents herself as an enigma.
Here, are two extracts that touched me the most:

Grief is a most peculiar thing; we’re helpless in the face of it. It’s like a window that will simply open of its own accord. The room grows cold, and we can do nothing but shiver. But it open a little less each time, and a little less; and one day we wonder what has become of it.

Whatever our struggles and triumphs, however we may suffer them, all too soon they bleed into a wash, just like watery ink on paper.

All in all, this book opened the whole world of Japanese literature to me and I have to say there couldn’t have been a better beginning. You might want to check out the film but don’t miss the book.

Extracts from 'Memoirs of a Geisha' by Arthur Golden

Sunday, February 12, 2006

I AM BACK!!

My apologies to all my avid readers for the absence of posts. Actually I had a bout of sickness and then did lots of travelling. First, it was lots of cough, cold and fever and then God healed me and then it was jumping into the car on Saturday last week and navigating our way to Leicester to the wonderful Hesed House, preaching at Melton Mawbray, an amazing community with lots of great things in store for them, then it was two days of Covenant with Bryan and three days of hitting the streets with the evangelists [that was a great time!! especially when we went door to door in Pontypridd] and then it was off to Nuneaton to visit the Living Rock Church [ok, i admit it was more visiting my dear friends Chris and Jacqueline Hamer-Hodges but I did want to visit the Church over there so it all fell into place smoothly]. It was a great worship time. God is clearly on the move among those people and it was great to be a part of that in a tiny way. And through all this, I have also gotten through 'The Memoirs..' so will post a review shortly.
Alright thats there for all of you. Now, need to get back to study, back to hesed, praise God!!

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Memoirs.....

I saw the movie a week ago, really loved it and guess what i get as a gift on my birthday [yes, it was my birthday yesterday, 21st] ? The book itself, so well, I am ready to dip into the vast world of Japanese literature, if I may class it so, for the first time.
It has been recommended highly so I am looking forward to it. Ofcourse, it will need an occasional return to the realities of hesed and hosea [thats the essay i am writing as of now] but for now just want to rest and get rid of all the cough that seems to have fallen in love with my throat. Its so hard to be so lovely. No one wants to leave you.

Thursday, January 26, 2006

School of Worship

I am off to the School of Worship for the weekend. Looking forward to some more words of wisdom from Matthew Ling and Dave Palmer
We've already gone through the Tabernacle, David's tent, the Psalms, and this time we have got to read Revelation before we go, so I guess some more of that wisdom on the way! Besides its not Stoney Stanton this time but Leicester so in anticipation of the new venue.

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Cheers to the Christian Book Shop!!

I went to the Christian Book Shop on Whitchurch Road today and I should say it was an exciting experience especially to look at all those second hand books. In fact, I couldnt resist and got three books and one audio cd only for 8 pounds. Now isnt that great? And really interesting books.
One of them is exclusively on 'The Tabernacle' explaining in detail all its intricacies. Another one that I got for only 10p is the concise biographies of five major evangelical leaders[John Stott, Martyn Lioyd-Jones, Francis Schaeffer, James Packer, Billy Graham] of this time. The third one is dedicated to illuminate how the whole Bible highlights Christ and his person[I am really looking forward to read this one]. The fourth one is dedicated to the classic hymn writers of old and their life stories and the audio cd is a collection of trimphant hymns of Christ and his work.
Therefore, with a content heart of having satisfied my appetite for a few days, I went back home a happy girl. [btw listening to the cd now and really loving it. There is a certain quality that these hymns carry in themselves, maybe the adoring hearts of the composers, that just causes you to bow down and adore the majesty of our King]

Monday, January 23, 2006

Great attitude!

St Augustine at the beginning of his 'Confessions' offers a very simple yet a very profound prayer to God. I believe this attitude is the key to learn more and more and grow up strong in Christ.

“Grant me, O Lord, to know and understand whether first to invoke thee or to praise thee; whether first to know thee or call upon thee. But who can invoke thee, knowing thee not?... Now, "they shall praise the Lord who seek him,"3 for "those who seek shall find him,"4 and, finding him, shall praise him. I will seek thee, O Lord, and call upon thee. I call upon thee, O Lord, in my faith which thou hast given me, which thou hast inspired in me through the humanity of thy Son,.. 5”[1]

[1] St Augustine, “Confessions”, http://www.albatrus.org/english/potpourri/historical/augustine_confessions_book_01.htm.

Its water baptism this time!!

This month, all of us at the School of the Work, oops! Word grappled with the statement 'It is not possible to live the new life of a Christian until the old life has been buried through baptism'.
And at last with one day to go, I am done with it.
It is quite an experience to go through the whole process of conceiving ideas, receiving revelation, studying the Word, studying other words and then at last, after lots of huffing and puffing, seeing the body of work come into existence gradually.
This includes the joys of opening a random book and immediately coming across a superb quote as well as the immense pain of deleting the same quote due to the word limit.
Many a night, when I was beyond the point of sleep, the music of Gladiator almost running through my veins by now, my mind trying to grasp the mysteries of water baptism, the profound nature of this very experience occured to me. Anyone who has ever tried in earnest to understand something will concur with my thoughts. It is not just the fact that you understand what you didnt understand before, or that you know more than you knew before, but it is just the experience that somehow coaxes you into maturity. It is not always a bed of roses. There are some definite highs and some definite lows, lows being more than the highs many times, but even through all that there is a growing that leaves you content, satisfied and more so fulfilled.
So here I am, a better, more mature, more determined person as a result of my Water baptism essay[thanks to richard, our inextricably un'kuki professor]. And as proof of that, I pledge to post more regularly now.

Sunday, January 08, 2006

Year of the King

We had an amazing time of fellowship this morning especially because all of us destined to be the 'young' group of 17 to 24s were prayed for and prophesied upon in course of the ministering of the Word.
God had already talked to me of this year being the 'Year of the King' for me but this put things into perspective in terms of my place in the Body of Christ. It was very moving and challenging when we were asked to walked around hand in hand and follow the baton held by the first person indicating our pursuit of the purposes of God. It is an exciting and challenging time to live in and I am glad I am a part of it.

Sunday, December 11, 2005

Purpose in every Step.

So I run with purpose in every step. 1 Corinthians 9:26 NLT

Its good to run but its useless if we do not know where we're going. Paul is talking about his apostleship here. And he says that his run is not a mindless run, rather he knows what he is running for, he knows there is an eternal prize waiting for him. Therefore, he is running 'to win'[v. 24]
Let us also run with God's purpose in every step and there will be no room for doubt or failure. Let us fix our eyes on the author and perfector of our faith[Heb 12:2] and continue our race.
And at the end of the day we are indeed going to be the overcomers, the winners of that eternal prize.
Let us alongside David, fulfill the purpose of God in our generation.[Acts 13:36, KJV]

Friday, December 09, 2005

KINGDOM KINGDOM KINGDOM!!

A really big sorry for all who have come on my blog these few days and found nothing new. Actually these few days I have been trying to get my head around 'The Kingdom of God does not consist in not words but power'. It is such a massive topic, I dont really know what to add and what to leave. Anyway, if you have some amazing insight into it and the essay title really captured you, you can write 5000 words on it and send it to me within two days. I will definitely oblige you by giving my approval.
This is a once in a lifetime opportunity so go right ahead!!!!

Saturday, December 03, 2005

The Christmas market's amazing!!

I went to the Christmas market in town today and what a splendid display ranging from food to clothing and lovespoons and ceramic lamps and the list goes on!! It was a wonderful experience especially because at last I saw something that matched our market back in India[though in the last few years my city has also turned its eyes towards the whole palatial mall culture].
There is nothing better than going to shop in those long lines of shops with the adventurous anticipation of good deals and good food. Ofcourse, there are the soar feet at the end but then, the journey is worth the pain!!!
Is it like a tradition to have Christmas markets here or is it just a Cardiff thing?

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Today we had church history at college and for all of you who just groaned, I recommend attending Mike's class. Your view of church history will change radically.
He reviewed the Medieval Church Age and the depressing nature of its outcomes but the point is that all that misery could not stop the plan of God. There were still people like John Wycliff, Jan Huss who stood strong for their simple faith and fought their battle faithfully all through their lives.
It is amazing how God shakes the high and mighty of the age through ordinary people. Wycliffe and his translation of the Bible became such a pain in the neck for the power hungry authorities of that day that they dug up his remains thirty four years after his death and burnt them charging him of heresy. What a desperate move and shame on their part! and yet it shows how God can exhibit his sovereignty through any period of time. No one is too powerful to supercede him.
It is also very encouraging for the people of God today who have seen the King and his Kingdom because as Tony always says "they can kill you but they cant take away your victory"